My mother will have a small conniption about that "at", but I couldn't make it work elsewise...
I don't like doing things that I do poorly. I know, who does, but I tend to have a short learning curve period before I get fed up with my lack of progress. And since I am easily intimidated, a "teacher" can short circuit that even more quickly - by being overbearing, by being underbearing, by criticising, by not being critical enough... That's just a sad, sad personal revelation! But not likely to change even with realization.
I am not good at doing things I don't like doing. I tend to try and get it over with so I don't have to spend much more time on it. So, really it's not that I'm not 'good' at it, it's that I don't bother being good at it. Again, sad.
I'm not good at things that require personal confrontation. I hate interviews and evaluations for this reason. Toss in my social anxiety, and whoo-eee, a recipe for blithering idiotness to shine! This also means that when someone is going to have to tell me that I am not good at it, I avoid doing it, which leads to a self-fulfilling prophecy of yick. And I don't like telling others that they aren't any good either! I'll cover for 'em until that outweighs the ick factor of telling them. And if I know that I've screwed something up and I am expecting a complaint, I tend to stop doing anything about it, just so I can avoid the thing that reminds me of the thing I don't like!
I am not good at being generous to strangers. I see/hear a lot of requests for assistance. I see a lot of people that make me wonder, why do you have fancy nails and/or extensions and/or that car and want help paying your phone bill? I think that being a PK and seeing the folks who think they need help, and now where I am and seeing it in more detail, PLUS knowing that my folks were broke my whole life has built up a callous there. But I can be a sucker for family - especially if not doing it will cause someone else aggravation.
I am not good at confrontation - did I mention that? It really deserves multiple entries because I am REALLY bad at it!!!
I am sure that there are other things that I am no good at. I am sure that there are those who give me the list!!!! Thanks for keeping me humble...
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
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hmmmm....not exactly things you are supposed to write in your little cute scrapbook from Ladies' Retreat, but I getcha.
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